I'm Quitting Mindfulness For Good.
At least, that's what I kept telling myself.
For a while, no WAIT! Scratch that.. for a LONG time since last year, I felt like I just wasn't able to offer anyone A-N-Y-T-H-I-N-G including my energy, time, attention, devotion, etc - let alone my family & friends.
I felt mentally trapped, and anxiety was showing up in the weirdest of ways.
1. There was zero interest in anything. It was a mental and physical struggle to muster up the energy to get up in the mornings.
2. I was also, and am going through hormonal hell. (thanks, 40!)
3. My son was at home, then back at school, then back at home learning and it was weird. Just WEIRD!
4. My body was in pain, I was not sleeping, everything felt like it was falling apart in me, and around me.
Can you relate?
Admitting this out loud is scary but here goes:
It was a heavy and deep thought that mindfulness and meditation weren't a priority, and therefore, wouldn't make a difference, and I wondered why the heck I was doing "all of this". For nothing? For no one? For me?
Quitting teaching mindfulness altogether would be so easy and guess what?
I ALMOST did! For true, I just felt DONE.
Five seconds more, and it would have been shut down because I WAS shut down.
I decided to give it one last go and created a children's mindfulness group class. I did this because I love working with kiddos, but I also wanted to somehow 'test' this out, and see if I was or am meant to teach mindfulness.
Because of the response, I received, and the wonderful families I met online, I had this renewed hope and overwhelming urge to keep going.
So, I haven't quit just yet - I'm rolling with it. The world is so up and down, and I'm only human.
If you feel like just trying something good, something helpful, something healthy with me, I'm inviting you to come to my one-hour virtual mini mindfulness retreat.
March 27th, 2021 ( it's a Saturday)
10:00 am - 11:00 am
$20.00 per person, group session online.
Everyone gets a copy of my book: 21 Days Of Mindfulness For Spiritual Babes.
We'll breathe, relax, meditate, stretch, and just start to feel better - even if it's for one hour.
It's better than doing nothing, right?
The Mindful Mama